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Birthday: 10/25/1990
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Interests: chillin con mis amigos, HWA-CHA! [aka: kung fu], ANYTHING that has to do with music, and just having a good time <3


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Monday, February 12, 2007

my head is filled with stuff. i dont know what to do anymore. i feel like xanga is the place to rant now that almost nobody goes on it.

i dont know whats wrong with me. college is so close, but im not freaking out. second term of junior year, the most hellish term in high school, but im still cool. it makes me wonder if i care all that much. i know that i should care but i dont know, for some reason, it's just not happening. i should be panicking about SATS and my grades and it should be keeping me preoccupied, but its not even really affecting me yet. maybe it still seems so surreal. time passes by way too fast.

also, this whole emotional attachment thing isnt great for me either. its adding pressure on top of pressure. since when was i so desperate for companionship? what happened? i used to be pretty independent but now, all i feel is solitude and isolation. i feel like im trying to reach for a hand, any hand, that can help me out of this mess. i want to find a hand that will hold mine when i need the extra comfort. i need to find that one person that can help me out and listen to me when i have to complain and reassure me that everything's going to be okay. i want his hand, but i dont know if thats possible.

im such a wuss. i hate that part about me. i can never let out how i really feel. im too scared to say what i really mean. im so used to laughing everything off and being nice that i dont really know who i am anymore. who is kaitlin? what are her dreams? what does she want? i dont have the knowledge to answer this anymore. its as if as time passes by, im losing a bit of myself to gain something else. i feel kinda trapped in this life that i live. for once, i want to do something adventurous. i want to live a day doing what i feel and forgot about all the restrictions and limitations i have to live by. but, thats impossible. i guess its just wishful thinking.

 

 


Sunday, June 04, 2006

when bronx science and stuyvesant shaolin kids plan to play pool:

c h1nadoll102590: so you can come hang out, right
c h1nadoll102590: we're gonna play pool
Chu Yun Fat: yea
Chu Yun Fat: lol
Chu Yun Fat: ok
c h1nadoll102590: im going to ATTEMPT to play pool
c h1nadoll102590: me adn you
c h1nadoll102590: will be the best team ever
Chu Yun Fat: yea
Chu Yun Fat: the balancing act
c h1nadoll102590: max: KAIT GO FOR THE BALL OVER THERE
Chu Yun Fat: stand on top of each other
c h1nadoll102590: me: I CANT REACH IT!
Chu Yun Fat: captain kaitlin: aye captain, starboard to port, i spy a ball upper right corner
Chu Yun Fat: prepare to shoot
Chu Yun Fat: pull out the calculator!
Chu Yun Fat: determine the angle!
c h1nadoll102590: calculate the force
Chu Yun Fat: CAPTAIn
Chu Yun Fat: 4SIN THETA
Chu Yun Fat: CHANGE COURSE
c h1nadoll102590: ROFL
c h1nadoll102590: INPUT
c h1nadoll102590: 49038 KILOJOULES
c h1nadoll102590: OF ENERGY
c h1nadoll102590: AT 4 SIN THETA
c h1nadoll102590: AYE AYE CAPTAIN
Chu Yun Fat: USE PYTHAGOREAN THEREOM
Chu Yun Fat: SET UP THE SPECIAL RIGHT TRIANGLES
c h1nadoll102590: USE DISTANCE FORMULA
c h1nadoll102590: TO DETERMINE
c h1nadoll102590: THE COORDINATES
c h1nadoll102590: OF THE BALL NAD THE HOLE
Chu Yun Fat: there seems to be another ball in the way
Chu Yun Fat: looks like we gotta pop this one other
Chu Yun Fat: over
c h1nadoll102590: USE THE EXATION OF A PARABOLA
c h1nadoll102590: !
Chu Yun Fat: INTEGRATE THE FORMULA
Chu Yun Fat: HURRY  UP
Chu Yun Fat: we should be shot
c h1nadoll102590: THE LIMIT OF THE BAL:L APROACHING THE HOLE IS EQUAL TO THE SQUARE ROOT OF INFINITY CAPTAIN!
Chu Yun Fat: but infinity over 0 is STILL UNDEFINED
Chu Yun Fat: o captain im losing faith in our methods
c h1nadoll102590: MAYBE ITS AN IMPOSSIBLE SHOIT
c h1nadoll102590: ALL MY CALCU:ATIONS ARE CORRECT,SIR
Chu Yun Fat: lets just aim it at our opponents
Chu Yun Fat: if we knock them out we'll win
c h1nadoll102590: LOL
c h1nadoll102590: score!
c h1nadoll102590: since we're both so short
c h1nadoll102590: it'll be an easy shot
c h1nadoll102590: just extend the poles
Chu Yun Fat: run throught their feet
c h1nadoll102590: and BAM
c h1nadoll102590: lol
c h1nadoll102590: pop their knee caps
Chu Yun Fat: haha
Chu Yun Fat: i was thinking crotch them
Chu Yun Fat: cause kneecaps you can get back up
c h1nadoll102590: then lets crotch them
Chu Yun Fat: or
Chu Yun Fat: we can hide under the table
Chu Yun Fat: and jump up and down
Chu Yun Fat: when they shoot
Chu Yun Fat: and itll be all turbulent
c h1nadoll102590: LOL
c h1nadoll102590: rofl
c h1nadoll102590: we'll fit under the table perfectly
Chu Yun Fat: yea
Chu Yun Fat: we can even stick our hands into the holes and push the balls that are about to go in back up
c h1nadoll102590: that will be halarious
c h1nadoll102590: joanthan: damnit, why did it pop back out?
c h1nadoll102590: maybe
c h1nadoll102590: you can distract the people when i shoot
c h1nadoll102590: max: LOOK GUYS, ITS A UFO!
c h1nadoll102590: everyone: *turns around*
c h1nadoll102590: me: pushes all the balls into holes*
c h1nadoll102590: me and max: WE WIN SUCKERSSs
Chu Yun Fat: we can call our "winning shot" some shaolin name
Chu Yun Fat: 1 hit and the balls all go their separate ways
Chu Yun Fat: each into a hole
c h1nadoll102590: lol
c h1nadoll102590: light of budda splits ying and yang
Chu Yun Fat: lol
Chu Yun Fat: for the finisher we could have the black and white ball floating in midair circling each other
c h1nadoll102590: ROFLMAO
Chu Yun Fat: and then we go scream HA and they go into the holes
c h1nadoll102590: LOL


Sunday, April 30, 2006

this week has been a MESS of emotions. i've laughed, cried, hated, loved, took advantage of, and appreciated within these past couple of days.

 

first off, the child of a close family friend has died of a car accident in malaysia. even though i don't know the boy, his father was like my second father. i've known him since before i was born. now, he has to go back to malaysia and he cannot come back to america due to his own problems. this week marked the end of a relationship and even though he gave my parents his phone number and address in malaysia, i know it is most likely that i won't see him for either a very long time or forever. i'm so sorry for his loss and it's like such a huge change from the jolly man he was to a broken down, lost man he is now.

it's amazing how much can change within a second and how much of an impact it can make to the lives of many people. this made me get over the feud with my dad because how could i possibly have a petty fight with him when another man has lost his child. this has taught be to cherish the time i have and be thankful for my family, friends, and for all of those who care about me. thanks for just being here and caring about me.

 

--------------------on the jolly-er note,-------------------

 

joyce baked me the cutest cookie ever!

lamb <3 apple

 

and my highlight of the week, HAPPY 2250th BIRTHDAY, BABY BUDDHA!

today, we've marched and paraded all over chinatown. it was freaking awesome. it was a nice break from all the tragic things that've happened and a great opportunity to hang out with my lovely shaolin buddies. and here are a shitload of pictures!

here's my dearest kevin, trying to figure out what pose to do in his suave performance uniform.

there's my precious lily&little stephen, banging the shiz-nitz out of the cymbols and something.

the silly pam&hsi-ling! and gordon too!!!

awwwwwww, it's me&jonathan, and lily in the background!

and lily&kevin&i just had to take a gangsta pic when we realized we were in eastside chinatown where notorious msg be reppin'.

and there are my amazing shifus - heng zhen and heng shan

shaolin group pic #1 - me, flavia, lavi, heng zhen, heng shan, pam, some kid, little stephen, teresa, arthur, jonathan, brennan, stanley, long long's profile, and lily's back

the very daring stanley&brennan

shaolin group pic #2 - li, some kid, arthur, i think that's libo, brennan, jonathan, main kong, little jonathan, lavi, some kid, little stephen, teresa, and yanik

will looking like he wants to get out of there, me, lily, and such a cute picture of kevin

me&little stephen

stanley, little steven, and me

shaolin group pic #3 - yanik's hairy ass legs, lavi, ben, angus, me, lily, kevin, and justin's legs

even though i look like crap in this picture, i'm gonna put it up anyway becasue the otherpeople look good. that's love. shaolin group pic #4 - yanik's legs, lavi, ben, angus, flavia, me looking retarded, lily, and kevin..oh yeah...justin's legs too!

 

oh me tofu, i love the temple!


Sunday, April 16, 2006

tonight was so much freakin fun. i'm surprised my parents let me stay until 12. thanks for a great time, guys!

 new sn: L is for Lammy

sorry, lily <3

weird things have been going on lately. if you're interested, i.m. me, because i don't feel like going into any details over the internet.

is it me, or is xanga becoming dead?

and angus, if you're reading this, you better freaking comment, ya hurrrr?

i feel like hanging out tomorrow, or any day this week. let me know if you guys are free. i definitely want to hang with 4th period lunch crew. i miss you guys so much!

 

holy fucking shit my back hurts. 


Sunday, April 09, 2006

me&jill

partners in crime. muahahhaha.

 

edit:

it's not like it's a BAD crime...good grief!



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